I was hesitant to go on this journey of self discovery. I’ve read so many self help books through the years and very little changed.
Initially I thought I’d look into this as a way to get better results with my business. Since I love what I do and I’m truly on a mission to change the health of a generation (my company’s mission), I thought it might be worth it just for that reason.
I’ve already changed some lives by sharing my products, but the possibility of changing thousands of lives, including my own, is very enticing. When I applied for the scholarship with this pay it forward training, I was slightly intimidated by the requirements but pushed through.
But, when I found out it’s a 6 month, 7 day a week commitment, I thought to myself – nope, I don’t have the time. Then I heard this wasn’t a typical training course because it could change your life…. Did I really want to change my life? I had to ponder that for awhile. Who would I change into? A better person? They say I’m a good person now. Did I really want to dig deep inside to find out who I am after so many decades on the planet?
I think I’m a bit afraid to dig too deep. Suppose I find out something unpleasant about myself? I’ve always felt that I never lived up to my potential. Suppose I find out that there’s no more potential. That I’ve used up all of my gifts.
And then it hit me! In order for me to change other’s lives for the better… I need to change and become better too. But was this the right way to do it… 7 days a week for 6 months? And then my favorite 4 words popped into my head ‘IF NOT NOW, WHEN?’
Throughout my married life, whenever I hesitated to make a change, those words are what my husband always used to remind me that we shouldn’t delay our dreams, plans, hopes and adventures. Tomorrow is promised to no one. Sometime opportunities only arrive one time.
With that in mind I decided to go for it. I’m actually glad to blog about it as I’m excited to document my journey to find out who I can become. Hopefully, the best that I can be…. with a good shot to become as happy and fulfilled as possible and then pay it forward.