Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.
— Oscar Wilde.
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The words ‘Experience is the best teacher….’ are on my mind as I continue week after week with the Master Key “Experience.” Initially, I was apprehensive yet excited. The excitement faded quickly as I realized I had to do work! Imagine that… WORK, the 4-letter word I’ve been doing since I was 15! I don’t know why I expected to magically learn the secrets of success, happiness and attainment of my dreams without doing any work? I just assumed that our teachers, Mark J. and the fabulous Davene would just share the secrets of their success and BOOM I’d be happier and an instant 6 or 7 figure earning network marketer! I thought that all I had to do was attend their webinars, pay attention and do some homework. Little did I know that the homework is about working on ME. I didn’t know that I needed so much work. Yes, of course, most of us would like to improve ourselves but I had no idea that I was filled with so much negativity. For years, people have been telling me that my positivity inspires them. On the surface my life probably looked ideal. Unfortunately, the positivity I shared with most of the world was a façade. It was a cover up.
The ‘Law of Forgiveness’ states to access the Divine we must forgive everyone and anyone, even if the anger is justified. I discovered a part of me that I’ve been trying to avoid – the angry woman who was holding on to years of disappointment, hurt, pain and abuse. I wondered why some mornings I would wake up and my fists would be clenched. This “experience” has helped me to discover her anger and banish it and forgive. Once the anger left, the person I was before started to reemerge. Now I recognize her, the one full of love, compassion and joy. I can see her having a better happier future now. During week 9’s webinar, two words brought me to tears “RESCUE HER!” I believe that she’s rescued and only needs to recover, heal and blossom into the golden girl she was always meant to be….
I saw this humorous sign (in the title) but immediately connected it to what we are learning with the Master Key course. We are all actively seeking our soul mates. How blessed are we to be learning how to do that! I’m not talking about the romantic soul mate, but rather, the ultimate soul mate, our future selves. Once we master who our future self will be via our DMP/Dharma development, we then need to continue to visualize that person until they become our best friend and soul mate. And that’s exactly what some of these exercises are doing for us. I finally understand. We’ve been instructed to keep ‘linking’ and that is starting to become clear as well. Here’s just a minor example of that. I rarely eat fast food since I learned how destructive it can be for our bodies. There are certain occasions when we have no options to obtain healthy food. I was driving and in one of those situations. I was so hungry I only would have time for a quick drive through meal. As I thought about stopping, I suddenly looked at the red circle on my dashboard and read “True Health!” My mind went right into action and I thought to myself ‘True Health could be delayed for me if I stopped and ate that processed, unhealthy food.’ The red circle was in my mind and my positive thought was, ‘I will not die from being hungry for a few more hours, actually, it will be heathier for me!” BOOM – linking accomplished
It’s the little things in life that make a difference. I’m noticing little things. Our promise to give without expecting reciprocity led me to visit a friend in the hospital. I so didn’t want to go. I’m not supposed to visit hospitals because of an immune deficiency. I didn’t want to see my friend in intensive care struggling to breathe. I was too busy. I didn’t feel well and on and on it went. Then my promise to give popped into my head. I put on a face mask and walked into ICU. I was so glad I went. I was able to help her wash her face, comb her hair, hold her hand and even make her laugh. (My DMP, I love to make people laugh.). Walking out my heart felt full and I felt happier just for giving. I thought to myself ‘who needs reciprocity.’
But there was a pleasant surprise as I waited for the elevator. I decided to look for my keys and couldn’t find them, probably for the thousandth time in my life. They had somehow slipped into the ‘black hole’ in my purse. I walked over to the nurses station to set down my handbag. A woman looked at me, probably wondering what the heck the lady wearing a mask was doing. I said, “I’m sorry, I was just visiting a friend and can’t find my car keys.” She started laughing and said “hold on… let me show you something. She ran to the other side of the station and grabbed her purse. She held up her keys and said, “Here’s something that changed my life!”
She showed me this little contraption that enabled her to clip her keys onto her purse so that they hang inside. She said, “I had the same struggle as you all of my life.” “Wow, where did you get that. I want one”. She asked me if I’d be back to the hospital tomorrow and offered to bring me one. I was incredulous. I said, “you don’t even know me.” She then said, “never mind, here, take mine.” She removed her keys from the gadget, put my keys on it and said, “Enjoy!” I asked her for her name, tried to find her the next day and she was nowhere to be found.
It was amazing to me that such a little thing could bring me such joy. Of course, I love my little key hook, but the fact that a complete stranger gifted it to me made me realize that things are happening and I am in the flow…….
The creation of the movie poster/dream board was a worthwhile exercise for me. A few years ago, a friend of mine invited a few of us over to make dream boards together on New Year’s Day while the guys watched football. We sat around laughing passing magazines, etc. I didn’t really take it seriously and actually just went for the festivities. Although I’m familiar with the subconscious mind (being a hypnotist) and have read quite a bit about the power of attraction, I didn’t really think about it and threw it in a closet. I occasionally saw it and smiled at the memory of the get together.
Last February my husband needed a poster board in a hurry (superbowl pool.) I pulled everything off of my dream board, gave the poster to him and shoved the pictures in the junk drawer.
In July we moved to our dream house and went through the torture of emptying everything including the junk drawer. I was ready to throw out the pictures but took a quick look at them. I was completely blown away as all pictures except one had COME TRUE! Even the electric bike I forgot I wanted was sitting in my garage. The one thing that didn’t happen was actually a decision on my part during the building of my dream house.
Visualization is so powerful. If you google reticular activating system (RAS), you’ll understand why.
I can see cracks in my cement, but no gold is shining through yet. I’m just getting caught up on reading people’s blogs, commenting, etc. I’ve been struggling to keep up with the technical side, i.e., digital webinars, blogging, etc. I tried to fast forward through some of the webinars but never seem to find the information I’m looking for…. I think my ego and my old blueprint are preventing me from asking for help. So there it is… I apologize to anyone who I should have commented on as I missed the whole blog roll thing. Hopefully, I’ll get there.
I’m struggling with the press release and to keep up with the added reading, etc. So, here is my honesty. I thought about quitting this week. After I thought about it, I also decided to ‘Pay it Forward’ to help the next class. It doesn’t matter what happens with me, it matters that I believe in this experience. I’ve read quite a few blogs talking about the joy of this experience and I’m just not feeling it. All I’m feeling is overwhelmed by the amount of time this is taking away from other important things in my life. I’m TRULY happy for everyone who is excited and feeling it, but sorry I’m not there too. I really want to buy a bag of cement and start patching up my cracks. But, for those moments that I felt ‘something…..’ and hope for the future, I’m hanging in there for a few more weeks to see how it goes. Maybe subby doesn’t want to change. Namaste!
NOTE: after I wrote this, I finished my press release. Although I haven’t figured out how to publish it, I read it out loud to my husband and started to cry. My press release made me realize that my dreams are worth the struggles. I know I can do this! And, drum roll please…. I turned on the camera for the first time for our Zoom team meeting tonight. I decided to overcome my insecurities about appearing on camera to share everything that I was feeling with our team. They were so supportive and told me to just be honest as that is what this journey is all about. In the meantime, I was also trying to Multitask and listen to a call for my business. Could it be a sign that my friend texted me because I won a prize on our company call tonight? The amount was the same $ amount that I decided to pay it forward for our next mastermind class? Coincidence or Providence?
It’s amazing how things have improved for me in only 4 weeks. This is the week when my belief has skyrocketed. Not only with changes in myself and my reactions to things but also, I can feel that the power of attraction is already starting to happen. Part of my DMP is a simple thing – the joy of entertaining in my home. I used to love entertaining and always threw parties sometimes for 10 people and other times for 150 people. Life’s challenges stopped me from doing it. I also developed some anxiety about having guests and I truly missed it. Last night I had my first dinner party in YEARS. And the beautiful thing about it was that I had a wonderful time and had no anxiety at all. I was so excited that I started texting people to host my first happy hour in my new home tomorrow night. Here’s a part of my DMP “I’m excited to share my new home with friends.”
The miraculous part of this has to do with our new practice of stating our intent to give to others without expecting reciprocity and also to be receptive to receiving. I always had a hard time accepting help. In recent years, I could feel myself becoming less of a giver because so many people had taken advantage of the fact that I live near the beach. They’d come, stay in our home, eat drink and be merry and then never contact us until the next time they wanted free lodging and food. I’m now letting those resentments go during my sit.
The 4 friends at the dinner party are in town for a week. Our friend Larry, who has been my husband’s friend since grammar school, called and said that they wanted to come and see our new home. I immediately thought to myself I probably should make them dinner and was struggling to decide whether to plan a meal for them. I really didn’t feel up to it physically. Later on, he called my husband and said they were going to bring the entire dinner and cook it for us. My old blueprint told me to say ‘no thanks, I’ll make dinner’, but because I’m open to receiving now, I said yes. They came and Larry made a beautiful dinner for the 6 of us. We laughed, talked and reminisced until 11:30 PM. They brought beautiful housewarming gifts and cards and champagne, and I could’ve cried from gratefulness
In a million years I never would have believed that these particular people would do that for us. We had gone decades without seeing or talking to them yet here they were on my front doorstep bearing food, drinks and gifts. They made up for all those people that took advantage of me.
I am now a grateful receiver.
I’ve noticed a difference in my attitude in week 3! Yes, I’m still a bit overwhelmed and fighting with my old blueprint but I’m also getting hopeful! I started to get excited as I read and understood MKE part 3. It was like a light went on in my brain! The power of the subconscious mind is truly amazing and spectacular. In writing my DMP I kept stating that I’ve overcome the symptoms of my illness. To me that made sense because I was accepting of the fact that it’s incurable, but positive enough to not let it define me. Conquering the symptoms seemed like a positive dream. Being symptom free would create a much better quality of life. When my guide returned it, I realized my thinking wasn’t positive enough. I then decided that I would be the ‘first person to be cured of this disease!’ BAM! That should be a winner with my subconscious mind AKA subby! Again, it came back that subby thinks disease is a negative word. Hmmm. DIS-EASE, yes that could be a big fat negative. After reading part 3, I had my answer. Anything is possible! “A knowledge of our ability to consciously RADIATE HEALTH, STRENGTH and harmony will bring us into a realization that there is nothing to fear because we are in touch with INFINITE STRENGTH!” BAM AGAIN!!!! It’s so simple. I am healthy PERIOD! Take that subby! I am HEALTHY!!!!!!
Week 2 has been quite challenging. I had a guest from Australia staying in my home in South Carolina. The weird part about this guest is that we met on Facebook in 2008 through an internet business. The business failed, i.e., they closed their doors overnight, but our friendship remained. When she told me she was coming to visit I felt quite uncomfortable because we had never met in person. I think my husband thought I was crazy for inviting a stranger to sleep under our roof. Actually, I never invited her, but I kept telling her that it’s on my bucket list to meet her one day. My husband doesn’t understand social media or why I didn’t say no. We have recently moved, and he wasn’t quite thrilled about having to install window coverings in the guest room we hadn’t intended to utilize for at least 6 months.
The visit itself, is a story for another blog but trying to explain my activities to her was quite strange. I said, “You’ll be hearing me say “Do it now” about 50 times a day. I’ll also be interrupting our activities to read 3 times a day plus I’ll be reading my life’s purpose 3 times a day.” I was proud that I interrupted our visit often to do my “homework”, however, I had a difficult time concentrating knowing she was just outside the door waiting for me. I’m concerned that I fell asleep from entertaining exhaustion and missed one night of my homework. Hopefully, no damage was done to my progress. Yes, I always keep my promises except when I’m just too exhausted and stressed. I’ve been feeling an abnormal amount of anxiety since I started this course. I’m not sure if it’s my old blueprint fighting the new one, anxiety over her visit (she left today) or just being overwhelmed in general. Time will tell.
I was hesitant to go on this journey of self discovery. I’ve read so many self help books through the years and very little changed.
Initially I thought I’d look into this as a way to get better results with my business. Since I love what I do and I’m truly on a mission to change the health of a generation (my company’s mission), I thought it might be worth it just for that reason.
I’ve already changed some lives by sharing my products, but the possibility of changing thousands of lives, including my own, is very enticing. When I applied for the scholarship with this pay it forward training, I was slightly intimidated by the requirements but pushed through.
But, when I found out it’s a 6 month, 7 day a week commitment, I thought to myself – nope, I don’t have the time. Then I heard this wasn’t a typical training course because it could change your life…. Did I really want to change my life? I had to ponder that for awhile. Who would I change into? A better person? They say I’m a good person now. Did I really want to dig deep inside to find out who I am after so many decades on the planet?
I think I’m a bit afraid to dig too deep. Suppose I find out something unpleasant about myself? I’ve always felt that I never lived up to my potential. Suppose I find out that there’s no more potential. That I’ve used up all of my gifts.
And then it hit me! In order for me to change other’s lives for the better… I need to change and become better too. But was this the right way to do it… 7 days a week for 6 months? And then my favorite 4 words popped into my head ‘IF NOT NOW, WHEN?’
Throughout my married life, whenever I hesitated to make a change, those words are what my husband always used to remind me that we shouldn’t delay our dreams, plans, hopes and adventures. Tomorrow is promised to no one. Sometime opportunities only arrive one time.
With that in mind I decided to go for it. I’m actually glad to blog about it as I’m excited to document my journey to find out who I can become. Hopefully, the best that I can be…. with a good shot to become as happy and fulfilled as possible and then pay it forward.
